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Classes are officially over! I have some projects and things to take care of, but past that I am done with coursework. By next week I will have another degree and hopefully I will have gotten my dream job...

Speaking of jobs, I am pretty frustrated. What is frustrating me the most is my apparent inability to show my skills. I have never walked away from a project with anyone believing my programming skills are less than adequate (in fact most times I am considered the strongest programmer), yet I feel anytime someone sits me down in front a computer to write a function or print some output I fall on my face. This may simply be a personal feeling more than an actual failing. Nevertheless, I do see it as an area to improve.

In a way, I wonder if this is my conscience creeping in. I haven't interviewed at sketchy companies or lied about anything, but sometimes, I just don't get a good "vibe" from an interviewer. I find it very uncomfortable when a technical interviewer makes you feel as though they want you to fail. I am sure they would say that they want to see how you work under pressure, but I also believe that those people using the interviewing techniques are not truly the most helpful when it comes to making the organization more productive. I can't imagine going to someone I work with and the person not doing all they can to help a fellow employee grow. Along these same lines, I don't want to work at a place where the interviewer put a bad taste in my mouth. What if that person is my immediate supervisor and they did not want to hire me but a higher up was the person that extended offer? This is not the kind of environment I would like to work in.

Maybe I am just whining or justifying some recent failures. I suppose it really doesn't matter much in the long run. My goals with my career are to enable me to enjoy my love of technology and allow me to spend time with my family. Simple desires for a simple guy. It just isn't enough to do well in school, peform well at jobs, go out of your way to learn new technologies, understand the context of technical problems and generally be considerate and kind to people. No, you have know about krsort() in PHP. Maybe next time.